Tempat rahasiaku (Flash), 3 Desember 2007
“Damned it” umpatku.
Rasanya kepala ini berat sekali.Malam ini aku terlalu banyak menenggak Chivas.
Aku sudah setengah sadar.Susah payah aku membawa Viper kesayanganku sampai ketempat rahasiaku.Anti bagiku pulang kerumah dalam keadaan seperti ini.Hanya akan menambah masalah saja.
Rumahku bukan lagi rumah bagiku.Rumah itu sudah seperti neraka bagiku.Tempat rahasiaku ini jauh lebih baik daripada “tempat itu”.
“Ayo, sedikit lagi” ucapku.
Aku berusaha bernapas dengan normal agar banyak oksigen yang bisa sedikit membantu menyegarkan otakku.Aku tertatih dan sedikit demi sedikit aku bisa melihat hamparan rumput berwarna hijau sama rdengan kumpulan bunga Fressia dan Krisan yang juga terlihat samar karena cahaya yang remang-remang.
Baru saja aku hendak menggapai rumput segar favoritku di tempatini, aku sudah dibuat shock olehnya.
Ya, ada seseorang disana.
“Oh, Shit! Gue lagi ancur begini ada orang lagi di tempat favorit gue. Sumpah cari mati aja nih orang” umpatku.
Aku masih berpikir dia pemulung atau semacamnya, dan aku hendak mengusir siluet manusia yang sudah tanpa ijin menempati tempat favoritku.Aku menyeret langkahku agar dapat melihat manusia yang sedang tidur di taman favoritku kemudian mengusirnya. Biar saja dia berpikir aku orang gila yang sedang mabuk.Aku lebih membutuhkan tempat ini daripada dia.
Akan tetapi langkahku terhenti oleh suara dari siluet manusia itu.Suara wanita.Dia mungkin terbangun.Baguslah aku tidak perlu buang-buang tenaga untuk membangunkan wanita itu.Sekarang saatnya mengusir wanita bodoh ini.Akan tetapi wanita itu justru hanya berkulik-kulik seperti kedinginan.Aku samar-samar mendengar dia menangis.Aku dekati wanita itu dengan kesadaran yang hampir mencapai limit.
Suatu tempat di pinggir Jakarta (tempat rahasia kami), awal tahun 2008
Keringat dingin membanjiri kening dan sekujur tubuhku.
Cairan kental berwarna merah dan berbau karat itu masih menetes ringan di lenganku.
Kugenggam silet yang juga terlumuri cairan merah itu.Gemetar.
Kupejamkan mataku.Tangisku pun pecah.
Aku masih memeluk lututku sambil menangis, ketika aku sadar ada seseorang yang tengah berjongkok di depanku.Kuangkat kepalaku sehingga mataku sejajar dengan mata laki-laki yang tengah berjongkok di depanku.
“Loe mau sampai kapan begini terus?” ujarnya ketus.
Kutatap laki-laki itu sengit.“Apa perduli loe?” sambarku kasar.
“Urus aja diri loe!!Ga usah loe sok nyeramahin gue!!Ngurus diri loe aja belom becus!!Loe pikir loe siapa!!”semburku emosi. Kuhapus sisa air mata yang masih mengalir di pipi sambil memalingkan muka.
Laki-laki yang baru saja aku maki justru menatapku serius.Tatapan itu lalu melembut.
Dia mengacak-acak rambutku seenaknya sambil mengeluarkan kantung plastik putih.
Kantung plastik putih itu berisi perban, alkohol, dan betadine.
Dia menarik lenganku dengan paksa dan mulai membersihkan luka di lenganku.
Aku memelototi dia.
“Ga usah sok perhatian deh Flash!!”jeritku.
Aku berusaha menarik lenganku dari genggamannya.
“KECIL!! DIAM GA!! LENGAN LOE LUKA!! MESTI DIOBATIN!! KALO GA BISA INFEKSI!! LOE MAU DIAMPUTASI??”ucap Flash kasar.
Nafasku memburu.Emosiku memuncak.Laki-laki ini, Flash, benar-benar menguji kesabaranku.
Aku terus mendelik menatapnya kesal.
Flash justru tidak perduli dengan sikap defensifku. Dia terus membersihkan lukaku dengan telaten dan hati-hati, seakan lenganku itu kaca yang sangat mudah pecah.
Hanya perlu waktu 5 menit bagi Flash untuk menyelesaikan prakaryanya di lenganku.
Setelah itu, iya duduk bersila di hadapanku.
Aku masih menatap Flash dengan sikap defensifku.
Aku masih marah dengannya.
“Sakit ga Kecil?” tanyanya jail.
Aku hanya diam membisu.Malas sekali meladeni laki-laki setengah gila seperti Flash.
“Ah, ga seru loe.Nyali loe ternyata cumin selutut.Berani nyilet cuman di lengan.Kalo mau cepet mati nyilet disini” ujar Flash sambil menekan lehernya.
“2 menit kemudian loe langsung mokat” ucapnya enteng.
Aku menatapnya sengit.
Flash justru tergelak.
“Baguslah nyali loe cuman selutut.Kalo lebih dari itu dan loe beneran ninggalin gue, gue pasti ikut nyusul loe” timpalnya jail.
“Terserah deh loe Flash.Dasar sinting” umpatku.
“Heh, yang sinting siapa diantara kita berdua??Loe atau gue, kecil?” tanyanya usil.
Aku memalingkan muka sambil menggigit bibir bawahku, Ingin rasanya aku menjerit. Bahkan mencekik Flash sampai mati. Dia benar-benar sinting.Hampir gila aku dibuatnya.
Tiba-tiba saja Flash memegang daguku dan menariknya perlahan hingga wajahku bersitatap dengannya.
“Look at me, Kecil”. Ujar Flash datar.
“Kamu mau terus begini?Kamu ga cape apa? Kamu harus berubah kecil.Sumpah, gue ga sanggup liat kamu kayak gini”.
“Apa perduli loe??Loe juga belom becus ngurus diri loe sendiri.Masih suka mabok, masih suka balapan liar. Terus loe nyeramahin gue dengan segala tetek-bengek “berubah”?loe sadar, kalo loe gak pantes ngomong kayak gitu ke gue, Flash!! Ucapku sarkastis.
Flash justru tersenyum.
“Kalo urusan gue itu beda Kecil. Gue cuman ga mau loe ikutan rusak kayak gue. That’s it” balasnya lembut.
Aku tertawa sarkastis terhadap ucapan Flash.
“Whatever deh Flash” repetku kesal.
“Kecil, gue tau loe marah dengan semua hal yang terjadi disekitar loe saat ini.Loe begini apa bisa loe balikin semua keadaan seperti semula? Ga akan bisa kecil. Loe mesti berhenti nyalahin diri loe.Berhenti nyakitin diri loe.Udah cukup kekonyolan yang loe perbuat.Kalo loe ga mau berubah buat diri loe atau keluarga loe, berubah jadi lebih baik demi gue” tuntut Flash serius.
“Hahaha..emang loe siapa Flash? Sampe gue mesti berubah demi loe??Sahabat gue bukan, keluarga gue juga bukan, pacar juga bukan” tuntutku ketus.
“Terus, sahabat di sekolah loe bisa loe bilang sahabat?? Yang cuman tau masalah keluarga loe tapi ga tau kondisi loe yang lagi sakit parah kayak gini. Sakit jiwa lebih tepatnya.Apa loe yakin sahabat di sekolah loe itu bakal nerima loe dengan kondisi loe yang seperti ini” dengus Flash.
Aku menatapnya terperangah.Ekspresi di wajahku mungkin campuran antara kesal, emosi, sedih, dongkol, frustasi, dan putus asa.
“Guetau ko kalo gue sakit jiwa Flash. Biar aja gue begini Flash.Biar.Gue puas dengan keadaan begini.Gue cape Flash.Semoga dengan begini nyali gue ga selutut lagi dan bisa nebas leher gue sendiri” ratapku.Tangisku mulai pecah.
Flash mengusap air mata yang mengalir di wajahku. Ia menatapku terluka. Sama terlukanya dengan apa yang aku rasakan.
Aku menangis sejadi-jadinya ketika Flash mulai menarikku seperti biasa kepelukannya.
Keringat dingin membanjiri kening dan sekujur tubuhku.
Cairan kental berwarna merah dan berbau karat itu masih menetes ringan di lenganku.
Kugenggam silet yang juga terlumuri cairan merah itu.Gemetar.
Kupejamkan mataku.Tangisku pun pecah.
Aku masih memeluk lututku sambil menangis, ketika aku sadar ada seseorang yang tengah berjongkok di depanku.Kuangkat kepalaku sehingga mataku sejajar dengan mata laki-laki yang tengah berjongkok di depanku.
“Loe mau sampai kapan begini terus?” ujarnya ketus.
Kutatap laki-laki itu sengit.“Apa perduli loe?” sambarku kasar.
“Urus aja diri loe!!Ga usah loe sok nyeramahin gue!!Ngurus diri loe aja belom becus!!Loe pikir loe siapa!!”semburku emosi. Kuhapus sisa air mata yang masih mengalir di pipi sambil memalingkan muka.
Laki-laki yang baru saja aku maki justru menatapku serius.Tatapan itu lalu melembut.
Dia mengacak-acak rambutku seenaknya sambil mengeluarkan kantung plastik putih.
Kantung plastik putih itu berisi perban, alkohol, dan betadine.
Dia menarik lenganku dengan paksa dan mulai membersihkan luka di lenganku.
Aku memelototi dia.
“Ga usah sok perhatian deh Flash!!”jeritku.
Aku berusaha menarik lenganku dari genggamannya.
“KECIL!! DIAM GA!! LENGAN LOE LUKA!! MESTI DIOBATIN!! KALO GA BISA INFEKSI!! LOE MAU DIAMPUTASI??”ucap Flash kasar.
Nafasku memburu.Emosiku memuncak.Laki-laki ini, Flash, benar-benar menguji kesabaranku.
Aku terus mendelik menatapnya kesal.
Flash justru tidak perduli dengan sikap defensifku. Dia terus membersihkan lukaku dengan telaten dan hati-hati, seakan lenganku itu kaca yang sangat mudah pecah.
Hanya perlu waktu 5 menit bagi Flash untuk menyelesaikan prakaryanya di lenganku.
Setelah itu, iya duduk bersila di hadapanku.
Aku masih menatap Flash dengan sikap defensifku.
Aku masih marah dengannya.
“Sakit ga Kecil?” tanyanya jail.
Aku hanya diam membisu.Malas sekali meladeni laki-laki setengah gila seperti Flash.
“Ah, ga seru loe.Nyali loe ternyata cumin selutut.Berani nyilet cuman di lengan.Kalo mau cepet mati nyilet disini” ujar Flash sambil menekan lehernya.
“2 menit kemudian loe langsung mokat” ucapnya enteng.
Aku menatapnya sengit.
Flash justru tergelak.
“Baguslah nyali loe cuman selutut.Kalo lebih dari itu dan loe beneran ninggalin gue, gue pasti ikut nyusul loe” timpalnya jail.
“Terserah deh loe Flash.Dasar sinting” umpatku.
“Heh, yang sinting siapa diantara kita berdua??Loe atau gue, kecil?” tanyanya usil.
Aku memalingkan muka sambil menggigit bibir bawahku, Ingin rasanya aku menjerit. Bahkan mencekik Flash sampai mati. Dia benar-benar sinting.Hampir gila aku dibuatnya.
Tiba-tiba saja Flash memegang daguku dan menariknya perlahan hingga wajahku bersitatap dengannya.
“Look at me, Kecil”. Ujar Flash datar.
“Kamu mau terus begini?Kamu ga cape apa? Kamu harus berubah kecil.Sumpah, gue ga sanggup liat kamu kayak gini”.
“Apa perduli loe??Loe juga belom becus ngurus diri loe sendiri.Masih suka mabok, masih suka balapan liar. Terus loe nyeramahin gue dengan segala tetek-bengek “berubah”?loe sadar, kalo loe gak pantes ngomong kayak gitu ke gue, Flash!! Ucapku sarkastis.
Flash justru tersenyum.
“Kalo urusan gue itu beda Kecil. Gue cuman ga mau loe ikutan rusak kayak gue. That’s it” balasnya lembut.
Aku tertawa sarkastis terhadap ucapan Flash.
“Whatever deh Flash” repetku kesal.
“Kecil, gue tau loe marah dengan semua hal yang terjadi disekitar loe saat ini.Loe begini apa bisa loe balikin semua keadaan seperti semula? Ga akan bisa kecil. Loe mesti berhenti nyalahin diri loe.Berhenti nyakitin diri loe.Udah cukup kekonyolan yang loe perbuat.Kalo loe ga mau berubah buat diri loe atau keluarga loe, berubah jadi lebih baik demi gue” tuntut Flash serius.
“Hahaha..emang loe siapa Flash? Sampe gue mesti berubah demi loe??Sahabat gue bukan, keluarga gue juga bukan, pacar juga bukan” tuntutku ketus.
“Terus, sahabat di sekolah loe bisa loe bilang sahabat?? Yang cuman tau masalah keluarga loe tapi ga tau kondisi loe yang lagi sakit parah kayak gini. Sakit jiwa lebih tepatnya.Apa loe yakin sahabat di sekolah loe itu bakal nerima loe dengan kondisi loe yang seperti ini” dengus Flash.
Aku menatapnya terperangah.Ekspresi di wajahku mungkin campuran antara kesal, emosi, sedih, dongkol, frustasi, dan putus asa.
“Guetau ko kalo gue sakit jiwa Flash. Biar aja gue begini Flash.Biar.Gue puas dengan keadaan begini.Gue cape Flash.Semoga dengan begini nyali gue ga selutut lagi dan bisa nebas leher gue sendiri” ratapku.Tangisku mulai pecah.
Flash mengusap air mata yang mengalir di wajahku. Ia menatapku terluka. Sama terlukanya dengan apa yang aku rasakan.
Aku menangis sejadi-jadinya ketika Flash mulai menarikku seperti biasa kepelukannya.
내 사랑이 네게로 가
Nae sa-rang-i ne-ge-ro ga
숨겨왔던 나의 기억 속에
Sum-gyeo-watt-deon na-eui gi-eok sok-e
지켜왔던 나의
Ji-kyeo-watt-deon na-eui
그대 사랑은 내가 아님을
Geu-dae sa-rang-eun nae-ga a-nim-eul
알면서도 이렇게 또 하루만
Mal-myeon-seo-do i-reoh-ge ddo ha-ru-man
알아… 그댈 사랑하는 일
Ar-a… geu-dael sa-rang-ha-neun il
and I… 그대 보내야 하는 일
And I… geu-dae bo-nae-ya ha-neun il
내겐 너무나도 벅찬 일인걸
Nae-gen neo-mu-na-do beok-chan il-in-geol
지워내기가 씻어내기가
Ji-weo-nae-gi-ga ssis-eo-nae-gi-ga
내 사랑이 네게로 가
Nae sa-rang-i ne-ge-ro ga
숨겨왔던 나의 기억 속에
Sum-gyeo-watt-deon na-eui gi-eok sok-e
지켜왔던 나의
Ji-kyeo-watt-deon na-eui
그대 사랑은 내가 아님을
Geu-dae sa-rang-eun nae-ga a-nim-eul
알면서도 이렇게 또 하루만
Al-myeon-seo-do i-reoh-ge ddo ha-ru-man
가는 그대를 이제 보내야 하는데
Ga-neun geu-dae-reul i-je-bo-nae-ya ha-neun-de
보내주려 해
Bo-nae-ju-ryeo hae
다시는 돌아 보지마
Da-shi-neun dol-a bo-ji-ma
그대라 나는 괜찮아
Geu-dae-ra na-neun gwaen-chanh-a
널 기억해 내게로 와
Neol gi-eok-hae nae-ge-ro wa
숨겨왔던 나의 기억 속에
Sum-gyeo-watt-deon na-eui gi-eok sok-e
지켜왔던 날들
Ji-kyeo-watt-deon nal-deul
너무 먼 곳만 보지 말아줘
Neo-mu meon got-man bo-ji mal-a-jweo
나의 자리 언제나 영원토록
Na-eui ja-ri eon-je-na yeong-weon-to-rok
꺼지지 않는 나의 사랑이 있으니
Ggeo-ji-ji anh-neun na-eui sa-rang-i iss-eu-ni
비워둘 꺼야
Bi-weo-dul ggeo-ya
I Run To You, I Live For You
I Run To You, I Live For You
I Run To You, I Live For You
I Run To You (2x)
TRANSLATION
My love looks for you
Hidden in my memory
Guarded in my heart
I know your love is not me
But just for one more day
I know.. loving you
And I… have to send you away
Too much for me to bear
To erase and to wash away
My love looks for you
Hidden in my memory
Guarded in my heart
I know your love is not me
But just for one more day
Have to send you away
Gonna send you away
Don’t look back
Because it’s you, I will be fine
I will remember you come back to me
Hidden in my memory
Guarded in my heart
Don’t look too far
(Your) place in my heart is always and forever
Never extinguished my love for you
Will always be open
[2x]
I Run To You, I Live For You
I Run To You, I Live For You
I Run To You, I Live For You
I Run To You
Hangeul & Translation Credit: yuchan87@romanization.wordpress.com + Rxgoodleaf@soompi + 3plus2only5@youtube + http://eklyricos.blogspot.com
Eines Tages, du hast mich gefragt.
"Ich Bin hübsch" fragst du.
Ich antworte dir,"Nein!"
Du bist sehr traurig, Dann fragst du mich welder " Möchtest du hier für immer bel mir?"
und Ich antworte dir, "Nein!"
Du bist sehr enttäusscht.
Dann... Du fragst mich noch einmal "Wirst du traurig, wenn Ich dich verlasse?"
und Ich antworte dir wleder, "Nein!"
Alle antworten verletzen dich sehr.
Du frägst an zu welnen und gehen.
Aber Ich nehme deine Hände, dann sage Ich,
"Du bist nicht hübsch! Sondern schön!"
"Ich möchte nicht für immer bel dir sein."
"Ich muss fur immer bei dir sein."
"Und Ich werde nich traurig, wenn du mich verlässt... "
Sondern.... Ich werde tod!!!
According to Chinese legend, tea was first taken in 2700 years BC. Initially when the emperor Shen Nung, who was sitting under a tree tea, saw some leaves fall and brewed with hot water into the cup. When he drank, he felt that the water he drank a lot better and make more fresh body. He spread his discovery spread to people. And now, the tea is not only considered delicious and refreshing, but it proved to have cancer-fighting ability.
Tea made into a beverage brewed by leaf, top leaf, or stalk of dried leaves of Camellia sinensis plant. There are several types of tea made from the leaves of Camellia sinensis is distinguished by its leaves drying process, which is green tea, oolong tea, white tea, and black tea. However the term now used tea to drink made from fruit, spices or medicinal plants are consumed, for example rosella tea, chamomile tea or chrysanthemum tea. Tea that do not contain tea leaves are usually referred to as herbal tea.
Green tea is the type most popular tea in China and Japan. Green tea is also regarded as the most beneficial tea for health, especially because it’s beneficial against cancer. Tea is derived from fresh tea leaf is through heating with steam at high temperatures.
Oolong tea is a traditional Chinese tea is experiencing a process of oxidation or fermentation part. Because only half-fermented, the leaves are reddish edge is the center of the leaves are still green. Oolong tea brewed, tasted more like green tea, but the color and aroma is less powerful than black tea.
White tea (white tea) made from the tops of the youngest tea leaves are still full of fluff. White tea does not undergo a process of fermentation, only dried. The leaves are evaporated and the dried white tea is not green but a silver-white and if the tea brewed the color paler color and the smell is soft and fresh.
Black tea is also known as red tea in China, Japan, and Korea. Black tea is the most popular tea and frequently consumed in Asia, including Indonesia. Black tea over a long period of the oxidation process compared to another tea. This tea has a strong scent and will last longer if stored properly.
Tea is rich in antioxidants in the form of polyphenols and flavonoids. Content of tea polyphenols in amounts 10 times higher than polyphenols in fruit and vegetables. The main polyphenols in tea are catechins can inhibit the oxidation process damage the body cells, reducing the number and inhibits cancer cell growth. Green tea and white tea contains high amounts of catechins, and even white tea is believed to have antioxidant capacity which is better than green tea. While black tea has more catechins less, because many catechins are lost in the oxidation process. Three cups of black tea every day is believed to reduce the risk of cardiovascular disease such as heart disease, lower cholesterol, hypertension, and stroke. Because substance flavonoids, quercetin, kaempfrol, and myricetin in tea may prevent blood vessel damage due to oxidation of cholesterol. Also, the tea also contains fluoride is beneficial for dental health. Based on research in Tokyo Dental College, fluoride has the ability to kill bacteria that cause tooth decay even, helps control bad breath and dental plaque formation.
Tea also contains the amino acid L-Thiamine which is proven to strengthen the immune system fight infection and increase in alpha brain waves associated with relaxation conditions. Black tea consumption may also affect the levels of stress hormones in the body that helps to overcome stress conditions quickly.
Tea is also useful to prevent brain damage due to the aging process. Elderly in Japan who consume 2gelas tea per day, decreasing the risk of brain damage by 50% compared to elderly who are not green tea or consume less than two cup a day.
Although efficacious, but that does not mean the tea should be consumed at will. Tea can interfere with renal function that will further burden the people with kidney disease conditions. Tea also contains oxalate, which if consumed in excessive amounts can cause kidney damage. Tannins contained in tea may be associated dg iron in the diet so that iron can not be absorbed by the body. This can lead to iron deficiency and anemia. Lactating mothers are also advised not to drink tea that is too thick, because although not as much as in coffee, tea contains caffeine (approximately 40mg per cup), so that it can affect breast expenditures.
P.S. Another essay jaman semester 1.. hihihi
Who doesn’t know colors? Without our realizing it, can have a profound effect on how we feel both mentally and physically. Colors have been a part of our lives. Though it is mostly subconscious, color affect your moods in a variety of ways. Colors also affect different people in different ways. Whether it's the color of a room, the shade of a blouse or the hues of a painting, the mood changes are noticeable when closely observed. There are three color schemes that will affect people of various ages, gender and ethnic backgrounds towards different manners, such as colors that can increase excitement (red, yellow, orange) and colors which can be calming (blue, purple and green)and colors used as a part of therapy by psychologists.
One of the general color schemes that will affect people is red. Red is an energetic color that can cause people to feel excited and stirred to the point of raising blood pressure and heart rate. Red in rooms where people congregate, such as the living room or dining room, can stimulate conversation. Red is the color of passion. It evokes intense feelings like love or anger. If you are looking for passion in the bedroom, red is a great choice. But if painting your bedroom with red can cause difficulty with sleep because this color sets an exciting mood.
Another exciting color is yellow. Yellow is considered to be a "happy" color, and rooms painted yellow can evoke a feeling of joy or intensity. Yellow also can be unnerving, which is why most decorators discourage people from painting a baby's room yellow. It also speed metabolism. Orange is another exciting color, not well suited for a bedroom but great for a workout room.
One of color which can be calming is blue. Blue is a very calming color and can bring down the blood pressure and heart rate. Blue can be relaxing blue gives the impression of peace of mind or a sense of calm. This is often described as peaceful, quiet, safe, and orderly. While dark blues can bring on or intensify feelings of sadness because too much dark blue can be depressing.
Others calming colors are green and purple. Green tends to make most people think of nature, since so much of the natural world is green and feel comfort. It's about connections with nature, or with our fellow humans. It's also good for general stress, since it can help balance emotions. Purple is cause calm, related to imagination, intuition, and insight. In some situations it can also be very peaceful.
Therapists have begun to include color therapy in their work, using color changes and images to bring patients into calmer or more animated states in which they can provide therapeutic assistance. They also help people understand how they react to various colors and offer advice accordingly. For example, on days when people are feeling down, they should wear yellow or red to help raise their moods.
As personal tastes are various, some individuals may be affected differently by some colors and it is wise to experiment with different hues and keep track of how they represent to your mood to find how "color therapy" can work for you.
P.S. Hehehe...Ini essay jaman semester 1 buat tugas M.K. English... hahaha... lucu banget pas baca ini essay...
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